For The Dreamers| Keep in mind...I'm an Artist, and I'm Sensitive about my ISH!

By | 7/20/2015 Leave a Comment
My Loves, how are you?!

Makeup by yours truly, Bee Wade. Photographer: Ahmad Barber Model: Sara Naomi 

First, I want to say thanks to everyone that reads my blog (even when I don't have new posts *insert sad face*). I wanted to come today and have a heart to heart about how I've been feeling lately. Completely lost...LOL

Twenty-seven weeks ago, I posted this to my Instagram:

As a makeup artist, my gigs mostly consist of weddings. Although it brings me much joy and really good money (not going to lie lol), lately it just hasn't been doing it for me. I find myself trying to get through day, and I have to stop myself from breezing through a party of 9. To be clear, I love doing makeup no matter the occasion. However, I would like to have more control over the way I express myself to the world with my art. During bridal consultations, the bride will tell me how she wants to look on her big day. I then turn her vision into a reality, in my own way of course, but the bride sets the mold. Every now and again someone comes along and says, "GO FOR IT! Do whatever you feel." Little do they know my mind is in the middle east and what I really feel like doing creatively would not go with the location/theme or culture of the wedding.

Atlanta based Photographer, Ahmad Barber is one of the few that inspired me to give more of myself to art. Despite the fact that I low key stalked him, emailed him, attended an event where his work was being featured, and continually like and express my love for his work on social media he gave little ole' me a chance to work with him. The featured imaged above is what we created. It's what I was talking about 27 weeks ago.  This...THAT is what I want to do.

I must admit. As someone who couldn't wait to be free artistically, I struggled during the shoot.  I had to un-fleek the brows and pretty much stop making everything so perfect (as I would normally do for a bride). I remember at one point I got so irritated with myself trying to go back into that box that I used a blond brow tint and brushed the models eyebrows in the opposite direction. Making them look textured, and clumpy. The complete opposite of 'on fleek' eyebrows. It was gorgeous! Check the photo below...

Items used:

Brows: MAC Brow pencil in strut and Brow Tint in Girl Boy
Face: Mac Studio Fix Fluid in NW45, Love Joy Blush (mac), the contour is embark eyeshadow (mac)
The GLOW is Soft and Gentle by mac as well.
Concealer: Pro Conceal by LA Girl in Fawn
Lips: Cork lipliner (mac) with Black Opals "Hint of Pink" matte lipstick.
Natural Lip Gloss by Nyx

The entire time, I was so unsure of myself. I would ask Ahmad what he thought of what I was doing, and his response was, "Go for it!' every time and it drove me nuts. I kept thinking, " Does he like it or not, I mean, come on man!" I was afraid that what I was doing didn't make any sense or that I didn't get close enough to the images in our story board. At the end of the day he enjoyed what I was did and gave me a tip for the next time we work together.....


I just wanted to come and share with you what I'm up to and the direction I'd like to go in. I look forward to working with Ahmad again and growing into an amazing editorial, clean beauty makeup sorcerer.  

Speaking of clean beauty, here is the 2nd model from my shoot with Ahmad... 

Clean Beauty! Makeup: Bee Wade Photographer: Ahmad Barber Model: Alexandria Aurelia
I hope you like it, if not...oh well. "Keep in mind that I'm an artist, and I'm sensitive about my ish!"

Until next time,
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